I have been absolutely awful about posting here in recent months, I know, and I’ve been awful about taking photos, even when my phone (which is now my official camera) is right there in my pocket. I let it slide and slide and then catch up all at once on posting a month or so of photos (such as they are) and what I might remember of what’s been going on. Full disclosure: Several of my recent posts have just been lifted from Facebook statuses.
I don’t really have a good excuse. Or maybe I have a thousand excuses. Yeah, probably both. On the one hand, I’d say I’ve been busy, but on the other hand, lots and lots of potential blogging time has been spent staring at Facebook or Pinterest or who-kn0ws-what. And I can’t say that there’s nothing to write about, because while maybe we haven’t been actually doing anything all that exciting, if you want some good old angsty, introspective ramblings, I ought to be able to come up with plenty of that.
Rambling #1 – Career Options: Have I Any?
Do I want to work full time next year when Peeper goes to kindergarten (GOES TO WHAT?!?) Do I have a choice, if we want to, ya know, pay the bills and such? And what sort of a job might I be looking for?
If I went back to teaching, the money would be quite good and we could pull ourselves out of the bit of a hole that we’re in. On the other hand, every time I think about going back into the classroom, it makes me kind of want to throw up. I love teaching people things, but I hated everything else that went along with it, and while I did have some years that weren’t bad, I ended it with a really bad assignment, and I was just so, so miserable.
But what else am I really qualified to do? I worked as a web developer for several years, but that was almost ten years ago, and the industry has changed quite a bit. I have been doing some of that over the past couple of years, and have done a good bit of catching up and have added some new skills, but not nearly what I’d need to just walk into a job as a developer.
Or maybe something completely different? But what? Much like the situation I was in way back when, when I first started this blog, there aren’t a ton of things available in our little town that would be right for me. I really don’t want to find myself with a 30- or 45-minute commute, though, because it would just further complicate the logistical issues with Peeper.
I applied for, and did not get, what I thought would be a perfect job for me, as high school director at Peeper’s school. They’re just starting to expand the program and needed someone to facilitate their lessons which come from a cyber school, and do community outreach for job shadowing, community service, etc. The biggest catch was that they wanted someone with a math teaching certificate who could handle up through calculus.
So, I reviewed and studies and (sort of) relearned trig and calculus, and took the certification exam, and failed it by two points. (I’d already been not-chosen before I got my scores.)
So, since it was so close, should I study some more and retake it to open up the possibility of teaching math? (My current certification here is just Biology, but that also qualifies me for middle school science.) Should I just admit that calculus and I are not meant to be, and take the middle school math certification test, which I should be able to pass in my sleep? What about general science, could I pass that? I’d have to review chemistry and physics. Or why am I even worrying about (and spending money one) these tests if I hate the idea of teaching?
But, damn, I do love the idea of paying some fucking bills. Including that home equity line of credit that we’ve gotten into again.
Would that this were the only, or even the most confusing and frustrating and overwhelming of the things that I’m angsting about right now. But more on those later. It’s about 1:30 am, and I’d probably better try to get a bit of sleep before morning.